Hush Little Baby

"A crying baby is the best form of birth control."

-Carole Tabron

I was warned that your second child is always the opposite from your first. I was skeptic. Until now.


Nathan was so independent. Didn't really cry and was happy 90% of the time. He would sit in his swing and just be happy as can be. Granted, I had lots of help from his grandparents but I don't really remember me wanting to pull my hair out as much as....well, now.


Jaxon Jaxon Jaxon. He cries and cries and cries.

He cries when he's:

-hungry

-full

-has a dirty diaper

-getting his diaper changed

-in a clean diaper

-tired

He cries when:

-he wants his pacifier

-his pacifier falls out

-he's sucking on his pacifier

-you pick him up

-you put him down

-he's in his swing

-he's in his other swing

-he's in his bouncer

-he's in his crib

-you rock him

-you sing to him

So, when is he not crying?

When he's sleeping.

I already feel like a first time mom again. The real first time though, I had help with an experienced grandma who seemed like she knew everything there was to know about babies. This time around, Stephen & I are on our own. Seeing as how Stephen leaves for work by 6:00 am and doesn't get home until dinner time, I am completely alone during the day. When he cries I worry that he's uncomfortable, too hot, too cold, hungry, in pain, gassy, etc. So I do everything to check and make sure he's just fine, which he usually is. But he just.won't.stop.crying. It breaks my heart. If it doesn't stop when I cradle him I'm overcome with this fear that he just hates me. Okay okay. I'm sure I'm overreacting and he doesn't hate me...but I can't help but fear it.

Just when I think that he'll never stop, something happens and he stops crying.
[Hallelujah!]
Maybe he comforted himself or maybe it was actually something that I did to calm him.
I like to think it was something I did and I give myself a little pat on the back.
I can do this.